How My Depression Manifests Itself Physically in Two Parts Part One: I’m fine, everything’s fine. But my face feels like plastic. And I’m crying out my ear holes. Its a cold leak. My lower lids are heavy, Stopped up with last year’s stinking clots, And clinging vines. I choke on my spit like fifty times […]

My husband is sick from over-indulging last night but I am A-OK. Even though my stomach has half the capacity of his. I think its because I have a genetic pre-disposition. I didn’t need 23 and me to figure it out And I might’ve risked my eligibility for health insurance by disclosing but… I am […]

A Day My back hurts like an old person. Like a person who has draped over toilets. Like a person propelling mops and brooms and dusters And vacuums In a vacuum, Lets sit crooked and talk straight. Lets listen, Through pin holes. No, I don’t want to feel better now. I want to feel better […]

Modern Love Are there any caveats? Any further instructions? It would be nice to have a consistent answer to trying times. What if more information does not yield more accuracy? Maybe more information just increases skepticism, What if data is no longer a comfort. Perhaps validation comes from a different source entirely Because no matter […]

Its year THREE for my annual (apparently) event, Cliterally the Best Pleasure Hunt Ever. More explanation of the event and its origins can be found here: The Hunt The facebook invite to the 9/8/18 event if you would like to participate in real time or just pop in to witness is here: Cliterally the Best […]

I NEED to miss my writing, Like I NEED to miss my kids. I don’t want to be without either of them all the time, But periodically. Turning it off, pausing, and turning it back on again- Fixes most things. For a break. For a refresh. To resonate in that space of *NOT* And embrace […]

Its an inexplicable sadness: A barren field Golden crisp and shorn, Where large rolls of hay Rested just long enough to be depended upon. Then so suddenly departed As if they rolled off into the night. If I could go back, I would’ve been bold. Crossing the crackling expanse, I’d lay prone over the bale’s […]

I’ve been feeling a shift coming on. I’ve been experimenting with my habits. And appreciating how truly entrenched habits can be. They can perpetuate in complete ignorance of changing conditions or welfare of the host. My habits are like water bear tardigrades. I’m finding my online life is having deleterious effects on me. I used […]

As I was jockeying for a decent cart at Tops yesterday, a woman approached me. She had an infant carseat perched in the front of her cart shrouded by a pink chenille blanket. She began, “Would it be terrible if I just…” Before I even processed what was taking place, I found myself internally dividing […]

How My Depression Manifests Itself Physically in Two Parts Part One: I’m fine, everything’s fine. But my face feels like plastic. And I’m crying out my ear holes. Its a cold leak. My lower lids are heavy, Stopped up with last year’s stinking clots, And clinging vines. I choke on my spit like fifty times […]

My husband is sick from over-indulging last night but I am A-OK. Even though my stomach has half the capacity of his. I think its because I have a genetic pre-disposition. I didn’t need 23 and me to figure it out And I might’ve risked my eligibility for health insurance by disclosing but… I am […]

A Day My back hurts like an old person. Like a person who has draped over toilets. Like a person propelling mops and brooms and dusters And vacuums In a vacuum, Lets sit crooked and talk straight. Lets listen, Through pin holes. No, I don’t want to feel better now. I want to feel better […]

Modern Love Are there any caveats? Any further instructions? It would be nice to have a consistent answer to trying times. What if more information does not yield more accuracy? Maybe more information just increases skepticism, What if data is no longer a comfort. Perhaps validation comes from a different source entirely Because no matter […]

Its year THREE for my annual (apparently) event, Cliterally the Best Pleasure Hunt Ever. More explanation of the event and its origins can be found here: The Hunt The facebook invite to the 9/8/18 event if you would like to participate in real time or just pop in to witness is here: Cliterally the Best […]

I NEED to miss my writing, Like I NEED to miss my kids. I don’t want to be without either of them all the time, But periodically. Turning it off, pausing, and turning it back on again- Fixes most things. For a break. For a refresh. To resonate in that space of *NOT* And embrace […]

Its an inexplicable sadness: A barren field Golden crisp and shorn, Where large rolls of hay Rested just long enough to be depended upon. Then so suddenly departed As if they rolled off into the night. If I could go back, I would’ve been bold. Crossing the crackling expanse, I’d lay prone over the bale’s […]

I’ve been feeling a shift coming on. I’ve been experimenting with my habits. And appreciating how truly entrenched habits can be. They can perpetuate in complete ignorance of changing conditions or welfare of the host. My habits are like water bear tardigrades. I’m finding my online life is having deleterious effects on me. I used […]

As I was jockeying for a decent cart at Tops yesterday, a woman approached me. She had an infant carseat perched in the front of her cart shrouded by a pink chenille blanket. She began, “Would it be terrible if I just…” Before I even processed what was taking place, I found myself internally dividing […]